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It’s December in the northern hemisphere, and living in the middle zone, Brrrr, It’s Cold Out There!! Even with the furnace on, there’s still a chill in the air inside. Maybe someone should bake…
Life can be insane… I used wonder what it would be like to have the bond most people have with their families, but coming into social media in 2007, I realized I’m not the only one who created one’s own family by walking away from abusive/toxic people to be around people who actually care. Family is who loves you, not who is biologically related. Money cannot buy safety, comfort & peace of mind.
When I was stuck, with little money to my name, nowhere to go, no one to turn to (mostly because the situation was next to impossible for people to wrap their heads around), my life situation resembled the song from Soundgarden from the Down On the Upside Album (1996):
Nothing seems to kill me
No matter how hard I try
Nothing is closing my eyes
Nothing can beat me down for your pain or delight
No
Nothing seems to break me
No matter how far I fall
Nothing can break me at all
Not one for giving up though not invincible
I know
I’ve given everything I need
I’d give you everything I own
I’d give in if it could at least be ours alone
I’ve given everything I could
To blow it to hell and gone
Burrow down and then
Blow up the outside
Blow up the outside
Blow up the outside world
Someone tried to tell me something
“Don’t let the world bring you down.”
But nothing can do me in before I do myself
So save it for your own and the ones you can help
No
I’ve given everything I need
I’d give you everything I own
I’d give in if it could at least be ours alone
I’ve given everything I could
To blow it to hell and gone
Burrow down and then
Blow up the outside
Blow up the outside
Blow up the outside world
Want to make it understood
Wanting though I never would
Trying though I know it’s wrong
Blowing it to hell and gone
Wishing though I never could
Blow up the outside
Blow up the outside
Blow up the outside
Blow up the outside world
Blow up the outside
Blow up the outside
Blow up the outside
Blow up the outside
Blow up the outside world
Strange, I was never really into Soundgarden, their songs were a bit dark – maybe related too closely to my life situation for comfort… The tempo & overall sound can be a bit depressing as well. Or maybe I wasn’t ready for it yet? So, I’d get out of the house with people who were nice & fun, but liked to pull pranks… It was my way of coping, yet being the nice person I was, got the title of Miss Demeanor.
Anyway… I got out, my son is my life & heart, found a mate who is good for me, and make it work with the people who sit at my table to eat. Holidays are quieter, without the expectations that I’ll be making ALL of the holiday pies, a side, attitudes about whether I gave my own card vs. one from my house to theirs, etc. Pettiness moved out.
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